Yolanda Hadid thought about killing herself during Lyme disease battle

Yolanda Hadid has spent the last five years of her life fighting Lyme disease and tirelessly searching for a cure.

Yolanda Hadid once found the pain so unbearable that she contemplated taking her own life. The 53-year-old former Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star made the shocking confession in her new memoir Believe Me: My Battle with the Invisible Disability of Lyme Disease, which is set for release on Sept. 12.

Yolanda Hadid was diagnosed with ‘severe, chronic neurological Lyme disease’ in 2012, She took antibiotics, but she still suffered from joint pain, exhaustion, insomnia and anxiety, according to the site. Soon Yolanda, who was married to music producer David Foster, had to spend most of her time in bed.

she recalls in the book a Florida vacation she took with then-husband David Foster two years after she was diagnosed with the disease.

“I take off my clothes and slip into the dark blue ocean, which is cool and comforting,” she wrote. “The waves gently wash over my naked body, and I can feel the current tugging at me. Tears pour out of my eyes, roll across my cheeks, and meld with the salt water as I try to still my mind to become one with the water’s ebb and flow…God please just take me away in a wave. I can’t live like this one more day. Please carry my body away. I just want to disappear.”

“My next thought is a clear image of my three children,” she wrote. “It shifts my consciousness immediately and that’s the only thing that keeps me from letting myself drift and drown.”

Yolanda Hadid and kids

‘As difficult as these past five years have been, I am so grateful that this journey has led me to living in the light.
‘I have had it all and lost it all, only to realize that less is more, money can’t buy you health or happiness, and one day at a time is good enough.’

Hadid has been spending most of her time in New York City where all three of her children work as fashion models. Bella has also been fighting Lyme Disease.

Source: eonline.com, dailymail.co.uk, people.com